There have been a lot of things going on in my mind. I have been getting pissed very often lately and it's starting to scare me a little. I really don't know why. Maybe its because the lack of rest and sleep is really getting to me or maybe its because i choose to be cranky. Or maybe i just get irritated very easily nowadays.



I think i am overwhelmed.. I am soo obviously out of control right now. Two days ago, i am sending him a message says "gud nite". Oh God..i am so sorry for being so ridiculous. I just can't get over it. Sorry i couldn't helped myself. I caught myself boundedness being such unprofessional and trapting myself with boredom inside which predominated me  from feeling empty and started missing him like crazy. I am crazy right now. I must admit it. I can't even dance with all my troubles away. Ohhh!!! i'm not supposed to say this..



It is true that the sajadah is only your best friend. They never betrayed you and always be your best partner. Get yourself close to Allah is the only way can make you feel comfortable and lead you to calmness. Yes..i am now feeling much better even though i still can't throw him away from my mind. I miss him..