The Mind Behind This
I listened to this
//Sunday, November 27, 2011 6:13 PM
Happy Awal Muharram To All Muslim!
One of my favorite months <3 a very humbling time and perfect opportunity for self reflection. May Allah forgive us for our sins and shortcomings and give us all the ability to obey Him and His Messenger sallAllahu ‘alayhi wa sallam. Happy New Year to all Muslim!
//Thursday, November 17, 2011 12:36 AM
It's Means A Lot To Me.
I adore this saying so much :)
" There are some things in life that don’t go the way you want them to or the way you think they should. But you can’t dwell on these because you’ll miss out on other opportunities. Don’t give up on something just because you don’t think things will work, you won’t know unless you give it a try. I know you can love. Be strong. Have faith in God. He'll help you. #amin "
//Wednesday, November 16, 2011 8:20 PM
Yess I'm finally here after a long silence, but silence is good sometimes.
Well hello to all of you readers. How you guys been doing recently? Hope everything going well. :) Many things have happened recently.
Many times I was tempted to blog, but I realised that I have been very foolish. I don't know what exactly happened. I can't even spot the feelings each of it. I know things can't be distracted once it is said. It's kindda miserable to bear for not understand your own self.
More days passed, I nearly went into depression because of those memories behind. It keep coming back. Sometimes I do feel alright but sometimes I rather say it's killing me when I feel alone. It is odd for me. I keep recall yesterday like today never exist.
Some how, I do wonder why do I always falls for someone who shows me the least bit of attention?
Well, I wish I can fall in love just like in the movie. Like a fairy tale..
Enough with that. :)
Well, I am waiting to continue my studies soon. InshaAllah if Allah wills it. I hope Allah listen to my prayer everyday and night.
This Saturday would be my last session for muet test after all. Hopefully everything going well that day. I know Allah always there right beside me. Thank you Allah.. :)
There one more thing that keep running in my mind recently.
Those thoughtful people around me.
I’m happy but yet scared. After everything that happened, I realised what was important to me and that itself had conflicted people perception’s of what is important to them. I am not going to explain what are my priorities here because once I explained, I got shot down. I’m fine with differing opinions but being insulted for different opinions? ....... That's awful..
I wish I could have write down of my plans here like how I used to blog last time, but when I told people of my plans, some had insulted me and thought it was a way of escaping reality.
As much as I told myself that I was too sensitive or maybe I was not strong enough, I realised that deep inside I felt the resentment and bitterness that I need to deal with. So it is not so much on who hurt me, but it is the matter of letting go and forgiving others. If I don’t deal with it, I would fall back into depression. I realised what depression is and I am not going back there.
Well, let gone be by gone. We are nothing compare to Allah The Almighty. InshaAllah I will moving on with spotless mind after this. :)
//Thursday, November 3, 2011 8:44 PM
Is Everything Going Well?
Well, it just that recently theres one buddy in my bbm list irrevocably something fishy with him. I just don't get it what and why. Things going weird lately..
//Wednesday, November 2, 2011 2:44 AM
Okay, it's a very fast update here! Just now, I just dropped in on one of my old friend's blog. Okay the thing is, he is a photographer. But, apparently, I don't know why I can't find his artwork interesting to my point of view. It doesn't catch my eyes. It looks so fake, unrealistic, and over edited. But, I don't straight forward claim that I don't like his art work. I usually give some positive responses since he is a friend of mine. I don't want him to feel tan and uneasily with me in a mean time ruin our friendship as well. I can't disappoint my friend.. In fact, everybody loves his art works.. So, I've decided not to say anything that might turns out worse.
But, it happened last time when I leave some comments on one of his photos taken by him that could be an issues now. I mean. To me. Yes it is. He's asking for my opinions about editing stuff and lighting features which is the most common basic important aspect in photography method that everybody need to learn if they're interested to know. Well, I admit it frankly I am barely not good enough to speak out all about it since I am not a professional photographer and I wasn't even plan to be one either. I only took basic lessons in photography when I'm taking my diploma last time. And I'm considering it as an hobby to me now. That's all.. But, what I did is just a random thoughts and comments where all people outside might think as well, their first impression when they saw the pictures. Unfortunately, It's not what I'm intended to do, to voiced out what did really crossed my mind in that periodical time. But it just a few minutes now, I found out, he print screen the comments and post it on his blog, and it happened last year! How come I don't know anything about it? Oh my.. No wonder he seems kindda different and very tan towards me. I feel so bad.. Seriously bad.. I can feels that he is not fully satisfied with my opinions. After once and for all..
And now I'm scared. Is he mad at me? I am literally apologize to him if I spoke out of turn.. I am so sorry pal.. :(