New Year's Day is used to remind Muslims of the Hiraj or migration, of Prophet Muhammad from Mecca to Medina. The way the Muslims celebrate New Year's Day is very different from other such celebrations. 

Scared and frustrated,
Cold thoughts touch my heart with a sudden feeling of walking away.
Walking away to a far away place with myself and my friends.
Feeling of needing a shoulder to cry on.
Wanting to share feelings,
But it can only be done with words.
Words of hurtfullness,
Words of love and companionship,
Words of "Oh Dam it, Let it be"
Words of why, why me?
Having the time to share these things all account on when, and why, and with whom.

I suddenly think of someone in my past..



I decided to explore wonderful places in the far away skies. I stood in the clear night outside my home and looked up and there it was.. a single star bright and beckoning. And I knew one day I will go there. It seemed to welcome me. I stood up tall and reached towards the beautiful bright star and I rose from the ground like a fairy. And soon I realize it just a dreams.. Won't it be wonderful if I really can fly..

People say we should listen more than to talk.

Can I stop listening for awhile ? I get tired of talking, and now that I don’t talk, I listen so much that I’m even tired of listening.

Not only that, I can live some parts of my live without a reason? I know it is good to know the purpose of living and why the life work the way it works but can I just live some days of my life just doing the things I want to do because I want to be random or because I want to get out of the world of reasoning?

How long can I continue to stay ignorant? Ignorance is bliss, but never too long once I realised that I missing a lot of truth out there.

I can’t believe that I’m actually tired of talking and listening. If I’m tired of one of them, at least I have one of them to cover up for me. Like I can talk all I want without listening, or just keep quiet all the way and listen to everything. But I’m tired of both. I don’t want to talk and I don’t want to listen but situations are making me talk and listen. I’m really hating it right now.

If for an hour…. my world will be silent… just for an hour.

Salam and Hello readers ! I can't fill you guys in with long details right now.

* I had an continuous heavy migraine lately - AGAIN - and it left me with sleepless night. 

There's a garden,
beautiful Allah says he'll give
To each muslim who has tried
A good life to live.

It's a place we've never been
Where people never die
Happy always,
they will be
And they will never cry.

So if we all obey Allah
Do our fasts and prayer
Allah will give us that garden
Forever we'll live there in Al- Jannah :)

"Ya Tuhan kami, kami telah menganiaya diri kami sendiri, dan jika Engkau tidak mengampuni kami dan memberi rahmat kepada kami, niscaya pastilah kami termasuk orang-orang yang merugi." Al A'raf (7) Ayat : 23